But yea. I saw John on friday. I didn't talk to him b/c I was in a building at the time. I wasn't expecting it to hurt like it did. I just looked back for reasons I don't want to explain, and there he was, on a bike. But it was most def him. I wanted to go outside and yell at him so i could talk to him, but when I did go outside, I kinda froze up. i wanted to cry soo bad. but I tried to call him last night and at first the operator tried to tell me the number was longdistance. i was like wtf? My phone doesn't have long distance services, so we can't call long distance w/out a phone card. But I was playing around on the computer and I tried again. You know. B/c I might have dialed the number wrong or sumpthin. I called twice but it kept saying the number was temporarily out of service. So I guess I have to try again tonight. Gah. But I want to explain some things that I really feel I need to, about the way I acted last year. I acted first and thought much later. And I regret that. i always do and say things without thinking and without meaning them. I have a really bad temper. Really bad.But yea. I shall go now. Later.